1 day to chinese o level listening comp!
why am i still slacking?

You know, sometimes it's just hard to relax.

It seems that I'm forever worrying my head off.
But with assurance I tell myself: It's tightly screwed on.
Maybe some day I will.



2 days to O-Level Oral! :(

Dear Diary,

Should I even be writing this?,
Because I don't even know what I really want now;
Everything suddenly becomes so pointless,
even LIVING by itself seems meaningless, let alone LOVING.
I thought I knew what I wanted.
The idea, the concept, the notion of life, the path of it, ALL of it
seemed to stare at me with almost mocking lucidity.
nothing seems to work, nothing;
People tell me that screwing up real badly is a part of life;
and I think, "Yup, and that sucks."
But I think differently now.

Screwing up badly IS life;

and that sucks. Big time.


Well, people still got to think positively,


all for something is better that all for nothing.




I think what I need now is a hug;





-not those kind of happy-happy hugs when some huge feat you've accomplished is worth celebrating;

-not those kind of just-for-fun overbearing suffocating bone-crushing hugs, the kind that Lok Lam gives (not that he broke any of my bones);




It's the comforting, consoling type of hug, the warm, kind and understanding one that really signifies that the other truly knows what you're going through, those emotional throes, woes and what-nots.


Don't ask me about that Binomial Theorem test, it makes me feel worse. Something that can go under the category of All For Nothing.



stupid x^10.

(From http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

I hate Nafizath.

I mean, seriously.
I know that "hate" might be too strong a word to use, but...
Look at what she did to my life.
By calling up my parents,
she worsened my relationship with them.
which is already bad enough.
And she as good as ruined the very last June Holiday I'm ever going to get.
And see. It's coming to a close.


Dear Ms/Mdm/Mrs/WHATEVER! Nafizath,
Time really flies.



Thank you for the homework.



See you in school next term.



And yes, I'm going to hate you from now on.