E-Learning Day 2 (Parental Advisory recommended for small kids):

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was pretty eventful.


I screwed up HBL SS QUIZ 1 by copying the wrong answer.


I got 0% for that.


I hate my life.


----------------Life is always like that--------------------------------



Dreams are so fickle.


I can rarely get one that is involuntary.



I know the mid-year is coming, but you still have to sleep what.



But I'm getting better at having involuntary dreams.



(FYI, not the wet ones.)



Albeit it happening only from time to time.





I had one last night which involved HER...






(Don't jump to conclusions just like that lah, all you dirty-minded perverts! IT'S NOT A WET ONE!)




(Why am I so vehement if I am innocent of such a unintentional vice in the process of puberty? Gosh I'm getting more PARANOID!)



Anyways, it's the third one already.




(That cold blooded creature that impersonated her is gonna suffer...)




The first one linked a pokemon cave and bus-stops.




The second one linked my primary school to my secondary school.




The third one took place right outside the band store.




It was the scary type.



The first one ended when I realised that it could not be real through a conversation with _______.




The second and third ended pretty abruptly.



The second made no sense at all.



The third was...



...scary.



Don't want to bring back that horrid memory from the dream even though it's vividly imprinted on my brain.




Exams, tomorrow.





Don't like the sound of it.

E-learning day 1:

Dear Diary,

My dad wants me to treat this like a real school day in every way.


I'm not going to care.



Damn tired from being forced to file all my stuf.


I go eat now.


Bye.

Post.

Dear Diary,

I feel that I have delayed action(s).

,

and I think that the "retarded" part of me now overshadows the "paranoid" part of me.

You know, just today Xian Zhe, Jie Xiang and two other bandmates of mine were lifting that stand thing and moving it after I came down from English Remedial.

At that point of time, I had just exited the band store and walking slowly, not noticing the double duo behind me.

So Jie Xiang shouted,

"Oi!"

I thought he was calling someone else, so I just continued walking.

"Oi!"

"OI!"

So I turned back, wondering who would be so slow not to realise that someone was shouting at him.
Then I realised that he was shouting at me, so I immediately made way...


...but not before seeing Xian Zhe's _________ face go ROFL.


*gasp*


I'm a hopeless, retarded ___________.


...


Before I start this section...

Congrats to:

Bryan Lim (Band Major, Relationship)

Koh Xian Zhe (Band Major, Admin)

Ding Tzung Ern (Band Major, Operations)

Wong Jin Sheng (Drum Major)

Shoki Lin (Concert Master)

CHS Chinese Orchestra (GWH)

CHS EL Drama (GWH)

Lee Zhi Yu (top in school for maths)



...


I put ESTATE MANAGER on that list.




...


I really like SAI GANG.



Maybe because I have an ipod in my head!




HAHA!!!!!



I got exam next week.




-I think I'm going to pass English.



-I think I'm gonna pass Chinese.



-I think I'm gonna fail Geography.



-I think I'm gonna be scared for lit.



-I think I'll curse ____________ 'cause of social studies.





-I think it's safe to hope for an A1 in Amaths.




-I think I'm gonna borderline emaths.



-I think it's safe to hope for a B3--B4 for Chem.



-I think I won't do for Bio as good as last term.



Arbitary Randomness : I yelled at a goat because I'm cool like that.



By the way, I don't know how to spell "arbitrary".



Hey, I think I just spelled it!





------I thinked I'm an harmless idiot.




and not Wei Hao.



---------------Stressed--------------------.




My parents love/hate me. YAY!


They're so protective of me, it's overbearing. It's suffocating.



I don't like that.



------------------------Lack of Dictatorship Skills----------------



I took the sec2s to MacRitchie for CIP as a PSL.



I was seriously disappointed with myself, 'cause this proves I'm easy to bully.



It was hard to get them to just shuddup.



Lucky 'twas a teacher there, or I'll never be able to get anything done.



I didn't have the mood to do band cheer back in the band room.



So Aaron started it.



Yah. It was lousy lah.



I had to take attendance because teacher told me to.





Quintus called me an extra little _________.




I don't know the last word.



But I still felt worse.



------------------------------------------------------------------E-learning days coming up.

Homework!

Dear Diary,

...

I feel like a hopeless ______.

...

I don't want to do my homework.

It's way boring 'cause I don't know how to go about doing it.

If I did it'd be a different story all together.

So I spent the morning reading To Kill A Mockingbird again.

Hey, it's a nice book!


...


"Sit back down, please, Burris,"


"You try and make me, Missus."


...

So, I decided I should write something.

Well, not exactly.

...

"He was among the most diminutive of men, but when Burris Ewell turned towards him, Little Chuck Little's right hand went to his pocket.`Watch your step, Burris,' he said.`I'd soon kill you as look at you. Now go home.'"

Anyway, here's a list on my homeworks:


"From this incident and others at school, what do we learn about Scout?"

-To be submitted on Monday, 20/4 to Miss Lucy Fernandez.


2008 EOY paper for Secondary 3 Bio students - Structured Questions

-To be submitted on Monday, 20/4 to Mister Jeffery Goh.



Chapter 7 : Nutrition In Plants

-To be submitted on Monday, 20/4 to Mister Jeffery Goh


Chapter 5: Enzymes

-To be submitted on the subsequent Biology Lesson to Mister Jeffery Goh


Bio File

-To be submitted to Mister Jeffery Goh on Monday, 20/4


Revision Worksheet on Chemistry

-To be submitted to Missus Valerie Chua on Tuesday, 21/4



Geometrical Properties of Circles

-To be submitted to Missus Anna Tan on Monday, 20/4


Things Fall Apart : Vocabulary List

-To be submitted to Mister Lawrence Tan on Monday, 20/4


Vectors : Worksheet

-To be submitted to Miss Celine Loi on Wednesday, 22/4

...AND ALL PAST HOMEWORK THAT I FAILED TO SUBMIT.

To (Chujian, Brandon) CHS Modern Dance : Gratz!

To (Alaric, Gerard, Luis, Brian, Nick Ow, and many others) CHS Edward Becheras Choir: Don't Lose Faith! I don't want to be tactless, so I'll keep quiet...go cry your hearts out and sing yoir hearts out...

Aiyah. Bye.

Dear Diary,

Dear Diary,

...

I have an A-maths revision test tomorrow.

...

I have to keep mum about it or my mum will kill me here and now.

...

But...

As I flip aimlessly through my Additional Mathematics textbook...

...

I realise that there's something bothering me.

...



Dear Diary,

Please forgive thee.

'Cause I am using you...

To get this bothersome load off my chest.


...


I don't want to spoil it for my juniors.


...


But I still have to get it off my chest one day.


I don't think anybody would understand.


Only I would.


...



Dear Diary,

What happened on the early evening of Monday, the thirteenth of April,


...

I don't think it changed me much.


It just brought back a little memory from the...



CHSSB AESTHETIQUE NIGHT '08.



I still remember the sky.


On that evening.


The fat clouds were tainted orange as the crimson orb hung high in the heavens;


Dear Diary,

the sky.



it was so...



nice.



I still remember...


Zhensheng, Woon Ngiap and Joel...


...


they were standing in a corner.


Of a certain balcony.




And Dong Lam was facing the three of us...





Xian Zhe, Ronald and I...




Quintus would be joining the section after the red batch leaves.




And I thought what does it matter?




But as it turned out, it did matter a lot...




My GOSH, does this matter even now...?




And then...



After Dong Lam passes out...



" Xian Zhe will be SL and Ronald will be ASL ."




And all at once,




A sickening, gut-wrenching pang sent flying into my stomach; it was like bitter medicine that made me realize; it was an evil concoction made for me to resent;




And hence, I returned to the present.



And yet again,


That noxious feeling, it was in my stomach again, it raised its insidious hands, reaching for my throat; as its cold, sinister fingers of bitter resentment wrapped themselves around my throat, the memory of the balcony, the beautiful sunset, all of it came crashing back down, crashing down upon my ears;


I felt my lips being stretched into a smile.



What on earth is wrong with me.



Why is all these coming back to me when I am studying A-maths?


Why?








Now, please...



let this feeling come off my chest...



And I can still feel it, it's upon me although I am upright, its crushing the very lungs of my emotional self, it's suffocating, it's oppressive, it's disturbing...I need...air.




Hey, it's like in that Commonwealth essay right?



Water...




Water...




Water...





Water....






Air! Air, air, air, AIR!






And yet another thought blooms in my mind, a sour, fruity lump is forming in my throat...




I feel like I just want to throw this ridiculous screwed-up life away and get it all over with.



And yet, I can't bear to part with it, I'm hanging on to it, tightly, pathetically, trying to catch my breath in the midst of choked sobs and tears...



Dear Diary,


Forgive me, but I still want to study for that A-maths test tomorrow.



And if I list ALL the things that's bothering me now,



It's gonna take me forever.




I don't feel any better.




but at least I tried...



I have to go stare at Polynomials now.



Bye.

Procastination:

Dear diary,

...

Presently, I am at a loss of what to do.

...

I was supposed to be doing my homework when

...

My parents made me sit through a boring documentary in chinese about bees

...

for an hour.

...

The worst thing about today is...

I have no idea about how to do the last 2 questions of Chapter 8 of To Kill A Mockingbird.

E. lit people from 3-4, 3-5 and 3-10 should know the questions...I don't want to type it all out.

And I still have chinese, chemistry, e-maths and biology left undone or at least half-done.

To make things worse, chinese tuition is coming in about half an hour.

And I haven't touched the essay I was supposed to write for it.

Damn!

And I still have that stupid chinese essay on a kind person and all the kind thing's he's done.

Double damn!

I would take things nice and slow if I could...

but I must CHIONG! my homwork.

Still, I have no idea how to CHIONG! my homwork, because it'll make me feel bad.

Personally, I feel copying is a better idea.

...

But is 45 minutes enough to copy everything...?

I wonder...

...

...why am I even posting this? It isn't anything interesting.

It's just a bit of a typical weekend in the wonderous, perilous journey of life in among the days of torrential waves of adolescence.

I like run-on sentences.

I don't know why. I just LIKE them!





Face it:


LIFE SUCKS.

And that's why you've to get the best and the most out of it.

Bathe in the glory of its one-of-a-kind lousiness.

Have trust and faith in its awesomeness.




I think I'm in love.




But life still sucks :( .


By the way, I've linked Dennis up.

If you think I don't know what that means, just go slap yourself.

Dennis, you'd better say THANK YOU one day, or I'll have to smack you.



...


Have a good weekend.

The Shuffle Test.

PUT YOUR MUSIC LIBRARY ON SHUFFLE AND PRESS FW FOR EACH QUESTION. USE THE SONG NAME TO ANSWER THE QUESTION....
I try to give sensible answers here, but no hard feelings okay? For the real one, check my notes on Facebook...:)


How am I feeling today?

Skater Boy - Avril Lavigne

Will I get far in life?

Shut Up - Simple Plan

How do my friends see me?

Skater Boy

Where will I get Married?

Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park

What is my best friend's theme song?

Something To Believe In - FM Static

What is the story of my life?

Secret Valentine - We The Kings

What is/was high school like?

Wind - Akeboshi

How can I get ahead in life?

Hold On - Jonas Brothers

What is the best thing about me?

Obvious - Faber Drive

How is today going to be?

Good Day - The Click Five

What is in store for this weekend?

God Knows - Hirano Aya

What song describes my parents?

SARS Free - Gurmit Singh

To describe my grandparents? (I only have one living grandparent.)

Alones - Aqua Timez

How is my life going?

Complicated - Avril Lavigne

What song will they play at my funeral?

The End - Bullet For My Valentine

How does the world see me?

By Myself - Linkin Park

Will I have a happy life?

Definitely Maybe - FM Static

What do my friends really think of me?

I Can Wait Forever - Simple Plan

Do people secretly lust after me?

Everytime - Simple Plan

How can I make myself happy?

Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne

What should I do with my life?

Leave Out All The Rest - Linkin Park

Will I ever have children?

Nobody's Listening - Linkin Park

What is some good advice for me?

听妈妈的话 - Jay Chow

How will I be remembered?

4 Words (To Choke Upon) - Bullet For My Valentine

What is my signature dancing song?

Good Day - The Click Five

What do I think my current theme song is?

Toccata And Fugue in D Minor - J.S. Bach, performed by Canadian Brass

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?

Golden Jubilee - Alfred Reed

What type of men/women do you like?

Secret Valentine - We The Kings



Dear Diary,

...

I must confess I didn't do much today.


I almost finished my chemistry homework, but I had no idea about determining the color of salts.

...

I still can't get any ideas for my chinese essay.

...

I almost forgot about my assignment on To Kill a Mockingbird.

In fact, I just remembered it.

...

I don't like vectors.

...

There's nothing much to say about today.

...

I'm tired.

...

Should I even be writing this?

...

Bye.





Have a good Good Friday ;)

An update among few updates.

I didn't post anything meaningful recently mainly for ____ reasons:
a) I had to catch up on Chinese homework.
b) I had to catch up on Maths homework.
c) I had to catch up on Chemistry homework.
d) I had to catch up on Biology homework.
d(i) I didn't feel like doing Pure Geography homework, considered doing it, but still didn't do it in the end.
e) I had to catch up on my Elective English Literature homework.
f) I had to catch up on whatever I had missed in Chemistry.
g) I had to catch up on whatever I had missed in A-maths.
h) I had to catch up on whatever I had missed in E-maths.
i) I had to catch up on whatever I had missed in Geography. (Which I didn't.)
j) I had to catch up on whatever I had missed in Social Studies. (Which I didn't.)
k) I had to catch up on whatever I had missed in English. (Which I didn't.)
l) I had to catch up on whatever I had missed in Elective English Literature. (Which I didn't.)
m) I had to catch up on whatever I had missed in Biology. (Which I didn't).
m(i) I had no need to catch up on Physics homework or whatever I had missed in Physics, because I don't take Physics.
n)I had a newfound obsession with Bullet For My Valentine.
o) I had to study for the test on statistics.
p) I had to study for the test on simple probability.
q) I had to study for the test on Partial Fractions.
r) I had to get over the (GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!YEAH!!!!)gold with honours award that CHSSB has attained as of 1 April 2009 and face the bitter realities of life after that short-lived time of crazed happiness.
s) I overdid what I mentioned in r), so I got a bit too sad...my parents scolding me don't help, no they don't, so I got too depressed to post anythong for THE Gold with Honours.
t) I sent my computer for repair and it only came back today.
u)I was busy feeling sad because I failed NAPFA again.
v) I spilt hot Benedict's Solution, hot aqueous starch, hot aqueous protein, hot aqueous glucose and approximately 125 ml of hot water on my pants today.
w) I broke five test tubes and one beaker today.
x) I went for band practice today. Sad to say,it was one of the worst sectionals ever.
y) I just found the book "The Little Prince" by Antoine De Saint-Exup'ery and I want to start reading it as soon as possible.
z) I'm busy thinking of another excuse as to why I didn't update this blog for so long. I am NOT going to use SYF practices as an excuse, I wouldn't stoop as low to do that.

Pertaining to why I will be unable to update this blog in the near future:
a) I want to train push-up.
b) I want to train sit-up.
c) I want to train handstand.
d) I want to train chin-up.
e) I want to clear ALL of my homework at least once this year.
f) I want to make my junior(s) understand why they need to cooperate with their seniors before I pass out.
g)I want to make my junior(s) understand that they need serious practice.
h) I want to pass all my subjects in the mid-year examination this year.
i) I am in desperate need of CIP hours.
j) I have to catch up with at least 6 things as mentioned above.
k) I want to ensure that I can be smart when I want to.
l) I want to convince myself that I'm not 100% un-hardworking.
m) I want to be a 6A1er in Olevels. Going by what shit results I'm getting now, I'll probably be dead by suicide when I get my Olevel result.
n) I want to convince myself that being a Double-Science student is better than being a Triple-Science students, all the way through O-levels and up till the day after we get the Olevel result.
o) I want to reach Koh Xian Zhe's current standard on the cornet by the end of sec3.
p) I want to/am afraid that I will not go to Raffles Junior College.
q) I am in dire straits in terms of academics.
r) I am having a lot of relationship-related problems with my parents. I want to get this over with as soon as possible, even though it seems impossible.
s) I want to make as much time as possible to enjoy myself without the computer or a TV.
t) I want to see for myself if love really works miracles.
u) I want to see if I can survive without bloggong.
v)I want to see life as it really is.
w) I want to do a hell lot of things.
x) I want to make the Valentine's Day of 2011 my favourite one.
y) I want to see if I can understand vectors.
z) I want to be able to make a list of 100 excuses for not updating a blog.

If I do update my blog, it's because the event that is shared is so eventful that I can't help wanting to share it.

OR because I find it interesting.

I think I'm showing a bit of retarded paranoia here, 'cause I should have started worrying about my academics a long time ago...

...still...

Life is life and all we can do is to live it...

FINE!

I'll go to sleep now, okay?

PAJAMAS ROCKS!!!